Nappy
Dhamma
An
exploration of Parenthood and the Path.
By Selina and Russell
Ariel
Karaniya Metta Sutta: Good Will
translated from the Pali by
Thanissaro Bhikkhu
This is to be done by one skilled in aims who wants to break
through to the state of peace:
Be capable, upright, & straightforward, easy to instruct,
gentle, & not conceited, content & easy to support, with few duties,
living lightly, with peaceful faculties, masterful, modest, & no greed for
supporters.
Do not do the slightest
thing that the wise would later censure. Think: Happy, at rest, may all beings
be happy at heart.
Whatever beings there may
be, weak or strong, without exception, long, large, middling, short, subtle,
blatant, seen & unseen, near & far, born & seeking birth: May all
beings be happy at heart.
Let no one deceive
another or despise anyone anywhere, or through anger or irritation wish for
another to suffer. As a mother would risk her life to
protect her child, her only child, even so should one cultivate a limitless
heart with regard to all beings. With good will for the entire cosmos,
cultivate a limitless heart:
Above, below, & all
around, unobstructed, without enmity or hate. Whether standing, walking,
sitting, or lying down, as long as one is alert, one should be resolved on this
mindfulness.
This is called a sublime
abiding here & now. Not taken with views, but virtuous & consummate in
vision, having subdued desire for sensual pleasures, one never again will lie
in the womb.
Introduction
This
book isn’t about anything complicated. It is about simply loving and loving
simply.
Whilst
the subject matter of this book is at first glance a serious one, our tone is
not, it’s about babies, not curing
cancer or finding world peace. It is a book by and for parents. We have found
an endless source of joy in being pregnant and in being parents, it is
immense fun and the joy can and does begin the moment you know a baby is or is
going to be a part of your life. It is also one of the most challenging things
that we will ever do, and this is precisely what makes it the perfect place to
practice Dhamma.
Parenthood
is, we feel, a frequently overlooked and undervalued aspect of the Path. In being someone’s Mum or Dad that there is a
path that enables us to abide in utterly selfless acts of giving, loving,
compassion, sympathetic joy and ultimately equanimity. Because almost everyone becomes
a parent and very, very few of us actually are unable to become parents, we
undervalue the potential for Dhamma in parenting. Yet if you want something
that will take you to the edge of what you had thought of as your comfort zone
and beyond, parenthood is it, it is profoundly challenging. Being a
parent obliges us to take the meditations on Generosity, Peace, Loving-kindness,
Compassion, Sympathetic Joy and Equanimity off our cushions and into our lives.
We are compelled to be generous with our time and our love. To be proper
parents, we are put in the position of having to practice what we have read
about for so long. With the challenges come moments of pure joy and rewards
that those of us who choose not to become parents can only guess at. Russell
has had a marriage where he wasn’t a parent and one where he is....he prefers
being a parent.
We
wrote this book having sampled what was already on offer in the way of books
dealing with parenting and meditation and simply finding them by and large
inaccessible. Often the approach of the author excluded Russell because they made
pregnancy and childbirth an exclusively feminine event. Others were barely
Buddhist despite being labelled as such in the promotional blurbs. Some were to
be polite, complete nonsense.
Nappy Dhamma is a
journey. We begin, oddly enough, at the beginning. We discuss preparations for conception and
then explore pregnancy and childbirth and end with caring for your new person. So
we took an every day event and combined it with every day meditations. The
results were anything but every day.
We include in
Nappy Dhamma basic instructions for meditation. In fact we include them a
couple of times. You may or may not be, experienced meditators. So we explore
the meditations in a limited way in the first third of Nappy Dhamma and then go
into much deeper explorations in the last two thirds in the section
“Meditations”. We chose to include an extensive list of material from the Pali
Canon. There are two reasons for this, the first is to connect what we are
offering into the Buddha’s teachings, the second is to provide a source of
information on the meditations themselves. It always helps to have a different
point of view and if our explanation or approach doesn’t work for you,
hopefully one of the others will.
As our gift to
friends as yet unmet, we give you Nappy Dhamma
Meditation: What is it and what does it do?
Meditation is an interesting
word. It comes from the Latin “meditatum”: to ponder. Wikipedia has the
following as its introduction to meditation:
It is difficult to trace the history of meditation without
considering the religious context within which it was practiced. Data suggest
that even at prehistoric times older civilizations used repetitive, rhythmic
chants and offerings to appease the gods. Some authors have even suggested the
hypothesis that the emergence of the capacity for focused attention, an element
of many methods of meditation, may have contributed to the final phases of
human biological evolution. Some of the earliest written records of meditation
date to 1500BC in Hindu Vedantism. Around 500-600BC Taoists in China and
Buddhists in India began to develop meditative practices.
The Pāli Canon, which dates to 1st century BCE considers
Indian Buddhist meditation as a step towards salvation. By the time Buddhism was spreading in China, the Vimalakirti
Sutra which dates to 100CE included a number of passages on meditation, clearly
pointing to Zen. The Silk Road transmission of Buddhism introduced meditation
to other oriental countries, and in 653 the first meditation hall was opened in
Japan,. Returning from China around 1227, Dōgen wrote the instructions for
Zazen.
The Islamic practice of Dhikr had involved the repetition of
the 99 Names of God in the Qur'an since the 8th or 9th century. By the 12th
century, the practice of Sufism included specific meditative techniques, and
its followers practiced breathing controls and the repetition of holy words.
Interactions with Indians or the Sufis may have influenced the Eastern
Christian meditation approach to hesychasm, but this cannot be proved. Between
the 10th and 14th centuries, hesychasm was developed, particularly on Mount
Athos in Greece, and involves the repetition of the Jesus prayer.
Western Christian meditation contrasts with most other
approaches in that it does not involve the repetition of any phrase or action
and requires no specific posture. Western Christian meditation progressed from
the 6th century practice of Bible reading among Benedictine monks called Lectio
Divina, i.e. divine reading. Its four formal steps as a "ladder" were
defined by the monk Guigo II in the 12th century with the Latin terms lectio,
meditatio, oratio, and contemplatio (i.e. read, ponder,
pray, contemplate). Western Christian meditation was further developed by
saints such as Ignatius of Loyola and Teresa of Avila in the 16th century.
Secular forms of meditation were introduced in India in the
1950s as a Westernized form of Hindu meditative techniques and arrived in the
United States and Europe in the 1960s. Rather than focusing on spiritual
growth, secular meditation emphasizes stress reduction, relaxation and self
improvement. Both spiritual and secular forms of meditation have been subjects
of scientific analyses. However, after 60 years of scientific study, the exact
mechanism at work in meditation remains unclear.
In the Buddhist context “meditation” is an, at times, poorly fitting
word that is used in place of the Pali/Sanskrit word “bhavana”, bhavana means
to become or to cultivate. So we don’t simply aim to practice Loving-kindness,
we aim to become Loving-kindness. There is another word that gets used a
lot in Buddhist meditative circles a lot and that is sati. Sati is often used
as “mindfulness”, as in Mindfulness of Breathing. If you take a look at the Suttas,
you can see by the changes in context in which sati is used that it can also
mean “recollection”, “remembering” and even “awareness”.
Traditionally there are four postures for meditation: sitting,
walking, standing and laying down. Most meditators use a combination of sitting
and walking if they are meditating for long periods. Sit in meditation for too
long and things begin to either hurt or not work as they should, knees and
bowels being the usual culprits. Meditating whilst laying down, especially if
you are sleep deprived will almost certainly result in a very sound and much
needed sleep.
As far as the postures are used, be realistic. A heavily pregnant
woman with “cankles” (combination of her calves
and ankles)” isn’t going to either
stand or walk for long periods. She will, most likely, find a chair the most
comfortable place to meditate. Otherwise meditate at times and in places that
work for you.
So set aside a specific place either at home or somewhere you know you
won’t get disturbed. Russell used to meditate in a cemetery. Most
of us aren’t into meditating in cemeteries due to a fear of ghosts and the
like, but they can be very peaceful places and often have wonderful facilities
for the meditator in the form of shady trees, pergolas and toilets and water
taps. Temples are more often used for this purpose if a space isn’t possible at
home.
If you have the
space at home, make it a special place, make it significant to you and make it
the space where you only meditate.
So a cushion(s) or a chair (depending on the state of your knees and or
pregnancy), a mat to put the cushion on, something recognisable as an altar
with the statues, paintings, photo’s on it (for us, our altar is truly a
personal thing), a place for incense and or candle(s). Fill the space with what
is sacred to you.
Make it a place
that isn’t too hot in Summer nor too cold in Winter or overly exposed to the
weather. You have to be comfortable when you meditate. You may end up spending
a fair bit of time here. This is the physical Sacred Space.
You can make your
meditative space your daily walk. So if you walk for exercise, meditate as you
walk. It is possible and it does make walking a very pleasant experience.
The meditative space between your ears is the
more important space. The meditative space between your ears is your attitude
towards meditation. Ajahn Brahmavamso of Bodhinyana Forest Monastery outside
Perth, Western Australia, teaches, as indeed does the Buddha himself, that
meditation can and should be, for want of a better word, fun. We are all, it
seems, at heart party animals. We like to have fun. Meditation should be no
different. The mind will return with surprising enthusiasm to something that it
enjoys. People who say that they “can’t meditate” almost invariably end up
describing a mind that has gotten bored. So if you approach meditation with the
attitude that it will be, and is enjoyable, then you are already better than
half way to getting what it is that you want from the meditation, which is
peace, bliss and wisdom. At the end of the meditation no matter how small the
peace or the enjoyment, take the time to exclaim mentally or verbally or both
just how much you enjoyed the meditation. This way the next time you sit or
walk to meditate the mind knows that it had a party the last time you meditated
and will be more willing to return to the meditative space.
Also know why you
are meditating. The mind likes to know what it is doing. Given the theme of
this book, you are meditating with the objective of achieving deep states of
bliss and concentration. Remember this, keep it in mind when you sit or walk.
You are in your Sacred Space with the intention of leaving happier than when
you arrived.
So you want a baby. First
things first.
Wonderful decision. Having done it
ourselves, we thoroughly recommend it.
It may take weeks or months before conception
happens. For some, like us, it happens almost straight away. At any rate the
odds are against the chance that you will conceive today, if that is what you
are trying to do. You might, but biology is against you.
In the midst of
buying or being given the enormous amount of stuff that babies require and the
other one million and six things that you need to do, we would recommend that
you set some time aside to seriously contemplate what it is that you are wanting
to do. And the immediate and obvious response to this question is ”Have a
child”. This, is the immediate and obvious answer to the question, but for us
there was much, much more happening here than simple procreation. We
take the view that in deciding to start a family that we are inviting someone
to take rebirth with us. Even simply
engaging in unprotected sex is offering an invitation for someone to take
rebirth. Which will hopefully give you cause
for pause the next time you are either too busy or can’t be bothered to use
a contraceptive. There is also the fact that if you take the time to read the
fine print on the box, that even the Pill has a failure rate, it is about
1:1000. Which means that if you are like many newlywed couples, that there is still
a chance that you will become pregnant, not a terribly large one, but people
have been known to show up at their doctors very surprised that they are
experiencing all the signs of being pregnant when they didn’t expect it. The
only effective contraception is celibacy, and we don’t know of too many couples
who are even remotely keen on that idea...we obviously were not.
We will operate
on the assumption that the pregnancy is either a planned one or even if it
isn’t, that the child that either has or will result is wanted and needed and
that there are people present who function as parents. That the family will be
of the type where there is a mother
and a father. The simple fact is
that children need parents, and after that the structure of the family is
essentially irrelevant. There is growing evidence that non-traditional and
non-nuclear families work perfectly
well. The essential ingredients are love and respect.
There is, at the
time of writing, a social experiment happening in the West that is redefining
the definition of what a family is. There is the emergence of same gender
couples being parents, there are single parent families and even families with
multiple mothers and or fathers. If you identify yourself as a parent, then
that is what you are. Being parent is an emotional event and not necessarily a biological one. Even in
traditional cultures there are multiples wives and people remarrying after
either the death or divorce of a spouse. So people will enter a baby/child’s
life at various points and be parents, their exact biological relationship to
the child, if any, is irrelevant. Russell’s ex-wife functions perfectly well as
a grandmother to Ariel. Unusual but a relationship that is, judging by the signs
of mutual adoration, mutual and working.
There are things that need to be done on a
Dhammic level. What type of person is it that you want as your child? Odd
question isn’t it? You are generally asked whether you want a boy or a girl,
but we’re asking what type of person do you want. Most of us want children that turn out to
be honest, gentle, loving, get good grades at school and generally behave in
nice ways to the world around them. We would offer that there aren’t too many
of us wanting serial killers. Take some time to think this over. There are ways
in which you can influence what type of person you end up having as your child.
It is completely obvious that we should take all possible care in our
behaviour and the lives we live in the lead up to and following conception. If we want happy, well adjusted children then we
should at the very least be happy, well adjusted people ourselves. Remember
above all else, that you are inviting someone into your lives. Someone who
won’t just visit, but someone who will be with you for the rest of this
lifetime. So, with this in mind great care should be taken in the preparations
you make.
We are not for a
moment suggesting that both the decision to have a family and the follow on
from that should be anything other than completely joyous, but you can trust us
on this one....you don’t want someone like Russell's brother in your family.
The man grew up to be one dependent on a number of substances, most of them
legal, one was not. He ended up losing his family as a result of his actions,
he had seven children. At the time of
writing his whereabouts are unknown, and no one in Russell's family is all that interested in
finding out.
There are a
number of things you can do to in preparation that will directly increase your
chances of getting the type of person you want to attract/invite as your child.
1.
The very
first thing you should do is meditate. If you haven’t before, then now is the perfect
time to begin. Meditators, are as a group, wholesome people. Meditation doesn’t lend itself to substance
addiction. Russell tried and failed in
his early years as a Buddhist to
meditate whilst variously drunk, stoned and hung over. It doesn’t work.
Conversely, he hasn’t come across all that many heroin or amphetamine users
over the years who meditate. Lots of ex drug users who do meditate, but a vanishingly
small number of users who do actually meditate. The types of people who engage
in unwholesomeness as a rule, don’t meditate. If you accept the logic that the
person who will become your child has
had past lives as a person, then the criminally inclined, or unwholesome aren’t
interested either in meditation or having meditators as friends or parents for
that matter. If anything they tend to be
attracted towards their own type of people. The old saying “Birds of a feather
flock together”, is quite simply true. We’ve all, hopefully, spent time near
someone with deep Metta, we know how beautiful Metta feels. Abiding in Metta will attract the sort of
person you want as a child.
2.
Keep good
Sila (Habits). “Sila” is often translated as “virtue”, in fact it means
“habits”. If you keep good habits...the habits of being moral, generous, kind
and patient, then you are by definition someone who keeps Sila. Honest, moral people attract the honest and
moral. This has to be almost the ultimate “no brainer”. There is a noticeable
difference in the atmosphere, the vibe, in houses and places where Sila is
respected and where it isn’t. This is why temples as a whole are such peaceful
places to be in and near. Russell once had a garden maintenance business,
and cleaned up the garden of a house
being sold under the proceeds from crime legislation (basically in Victoria the
government sells your property if they think you got it as a result of criminal
activity. In this case the sale of marijuana), he tells of wanting to be away
from the house as quickly as possible. The atmosphere was simply appalling. If
you keep good Sila, then you will automatically attract nice beings. There is
the story of a man who could see angels
and demons. He noticed that all the pubs, drug dens etc., had angels outside
them, he also noticed a surprising number of demons outside temples, churches
etc. This struck him as wrong. So he asked his Dhamma teacher about this.
The
reply was to the effect that the wholesome beings couldn’t go inside the
unwholesome/unclean places and vice versa. So if you want a nice person as your
child...you know what to do.
3.
Get
involved in charities. Help out at your Dhamma centre, if you attend one.
Buddhist Societies/Groups/Temples in Asia tend to be much more socially
involved than their counterparts in the West. So there should be more of a
chance to be involved with social work or other ways of giving. Otherwise,
volunteering at a registered charity is
a wonderful way to begin preparing for your baby, and they are remarkably easy
to find. In the West the major websites that carry positions vacant also carry
chances to volunteer. Volunteering is Skilful Action. You are creating wholesome kamma. At the very
least you are being nice people. Do not
under estimate the power of helping in attracting someone nice to be your
child. In the West today there are almost endless opportunities to
volunteer. A curious thing to note, is
that in Australia, people on the lookout for a husband or wife are actually
using volunteering as a way of meeting potential spouses. It turns out that
volunteering attracts a certain type of personality, and if you are of a
volunteering nature, that’s where you’ll most likely meet someone of the same
nature. If the logic works for the love of the lifetime, then it works for
attracting the being who will become your child.
Pregnancy
So you’ve just
learnt that you are pregnant or have just found or been given this book. Our
warmest and most heartfelt congratulations. The journey began without anything to catch
your attention, there were no angels singing or earthquakes to mark it as what
it is, which is something deeply special and certainly unique. If you are like
the vast majority of us who become parents, you are now a month or more along
the path. An everyday miracle has
happened and it happened with you. Something utterly unique and wonderful
should have had more fanfare attached to it and it didn’t...until now. Rejoice,
tell the world...whether it wants to know or not.
We found
pregnancy to be utterly fascinating. We, quite literally wouldn’t have missed
it for anything. It was almost nine months of the most incredible journey of
our lives. We read the pregnancy books together and found an amazing amount of
complete and utter nonsense, and some true gems of wisdom. Went to antenatal
classes and found that midwives were a singularly “chill” group of
people. Went to baby clothing stores and
markets. Talked at length to almost everyone with children
who would engage us and as a result were given the single piece of genuine
unalloyed wisdom, we were told that in the opinion of one couple that you have
eighteen years to raise your child, what they were like as adults was
functionally beyond your control, also you can’t make an untrustworthy child
trustworthy or vice-versa, that children, as people are simply what they
are. Did
an astonishing amount of observing parents and children in action, saw
some horrors and as a result and we found that from the very beginning our baby
was giving to us.
Our baby gave us
the sense of purpose, we were going to be pregnant. It wouldn’t just be Selina who was pregnant, it was going to be US. Pregnancy is a
wonderful time in which to deepen and strengthen a relationship. You can only
ever be pregnant the first time once. That first hint, then the confirmation
that you are pregnant is unforgettable. Give each other the time to simply
marvel, wonder and be utterly gobsmacked at being pregnant. We took lots of
long walks holding hands and glowing at each other. Knowing that we were
pregnant was completely wonderful. It was the fulfilment of a long held wish.
You are now on
the journey of a lifetime. An utterly wonderful, mysterious, deeply mystical,
frightening and demanding journey.
Parenthood will bring out the absolute best and worst in you. You will
do things you never thought you either could or would. If you are like us,
parenthood will also bring a deep peace and sense of completion.
There is also the well known phenomena of
sympathetic pregnancy, which is where the husband actually experiences the all
signs of pregnancy, including morning sickness and contractions when the wife
goes into labour.. We’ve forgotten where, but we do know of events where the
wife has had an almost pain free labour and it’s been the husband screaming for
painkillers as he has been the one with the full experience of labour. There is
actually a name for this, it’s called Couvade Syndrome and the entry in Wikipedia
makes for very interesting
reading(en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sympathetic_pregnancy). We can’t see where too many bosses would
accept morning sickness from a man as a reason for a day of work....here they
would most likely accuse him of being hung over...but it does happen.
Pregnancy will
also bring a number of chances to practice Dhamma. Until now Dhamma has most
likely been associated with solitary or group meditations, Dhamma Halls and
talks, Bhikkhu and Bhikkhuni, helping out at the temple, offering dana and at
Kathina the offering of Requisites. Things, our friends are about to
change...permanently! Now Dhamma will be associated with the utterly magical
moment when you first see your child’s heartbeat on the first ultrasound, the
first identifiable movements of your baby in the womb (for Selina they felt like little butterfly wings tickling her on the
inside), early morning
feeds, the offering of a clean, dry nappy, the blessed silence when your
baby is sound asleep, when they crawl for the first time, the first words, the
entire joyous experience of being a parent.
Babies announce
themselves in many ways. For some it is morning sickness, the successive
mornings of feeling absolutely vile. For others it is the physical changes of
breasts suddenly being sensitive and growing larger. For some it is the
recognition that you haven’t had your cycle in quite a while and a trip to your
General Practitioner, who will, most likely take a urine sample and then give
you congratulations. No matter how your baby announces themselves in your life,
it will be an unforgettable moment. For us it was mild morning sickness and an inability to eat
party food. We had had a miscarriage about six weeks previously, so the
recognition that Selina was pregnant again came as
something of a surprise.
All the advice that things would take
time to heal and sort themselves out, just didn’t happen. We ended up sending
an e-mail to our GP listing ten reasons why Selina was pregnant, had the reply
that a urine test was still needed, doing one of them at home and then
e-mailing the photo to the GP...he still did his own, but this time there was
no chance that Selina was anything other than pregnant.
For some, the
chance to practice Dhamma begins with morning sickness. Morning sickness
doesn’t visit every women or every pregnancy. Some women, like Selina
experience it as a mild nausea that comes and goes for the first trimester, for
others, it’s projectile vomiting for the entire pregnancy and nothing you do
either stops it or alters the fact that the only foods that don’t cause it are
cheese on toast or oranges and watermelons. For others there is a sudden
intolerance to foods or smells that used to either not bother you or you
actually enjoyed.
It may seem like
pious nonsense, but, if you change the way you perceive it, morning sickness
can be a source of much joy. Morning sickness is one of the unmistakeable signs
that you are pregnant, that you have succeeded in your ambition. In between
bouts of throwing up and when you are in a marginally more comfortable posture
than on your knees in front of your toilet, bath, shower or kitchen sink, you should
both take the time to welcome the person
you have invited into your life and this rebirth.
Hello my baby. We are so glad to have you in our lives. Stay
and grow strong.
When or if you
choose to find out the gender of your baby, you can change the recitation.
Hello my son/daughter. We are so glad to have
you in our lives. Stay and grow strong.
Or words to that
effect that have meaning for you.
Morning sickness
is taken as a sign that the pregnancy is
healthy. We are not sure if the
logic extends to where projectile vomiting means you’ve got a marathon runner
inside you or that nine months of being ill means that your baby will live a
century or more, but there is the wisdom that a strong baby will make you ill. And
“morning sickness” is a myth...you will puke at any time of the day or night.
“My/Our
baby is strong. How wonderful!”
Once again make
the words meaningful to you.
Given that
mercifully few couples actually endure almost permanent morning sickness
throughout the pregnancy, there will be time and space in which to simply sit both
together and alone and welcome this being who, out of the millions of couples
in the world who conceived on the day you did, chose you to be his or her
parents.
When your wife is
heartily throwing up her last meal, cup of tea etc., is the perfect time to
practice Compassion. If she’s anything like Selina , this will be a smart move.
As you hold her hand, wipe her mouth and or clean up any mess that may have
resulted
“My
wife may you be free from this suffering”.
Pregnancy is a
time rich in chances to practice Generosity. At first so many of the things you
will do or are doing during the course of the pregnancy seem so mundane and
even boring. It doesn’t have to be this way. You can give being up at what
seems an ungodly hour and dealing with an event that has very few pleasant
aspects.
In the time
between deciding to have a family and actually becoming pregnant there are many
gifts you can give to the baby that will come and to each other. If you smoke,
make giving up a gift. If you are obese, then make the transition to a healthy
weight a gift. The simple act of eating properly can be made into a gift. When
we decided to start trying, the very first thing we did was to change our “lifestyle”.
We began taking long walks together and
virtually gave up junk food. With the loss of Ariel 1 we went for a walk and
found an outdoor gym in a nearby park that was free. In fact, it was after a
long walk in the Yarra Valley that Ariel 2 was conceived. Everyone knows that the fitter you are, the
easier it is to get pregnant. So give
yourself and your baby-to-be the gift of gym membership and or regular
exercise. And take the time to see the joy in this. There are quite literally
no negatives in being fit. Being fit and wanting to make a baby is a bonus.
The simple
biology should convince you: fit men have higher sperm counts, fit women
ovulate more regularly and the eggs released are more viable, a women who is
fit is much, much more likely to have the fertilised egg implant itself. If you
are serious about making a baby then the giving starts quite literally at the
beginning. Being fit and healthy is stacking the odds of becoming pregnant in
your favour. Choosing an unhealthy lifestyle is stacking the odds against
yourself.
As a
meditation reflect, contemplate and take joy in the fact that today, for the
last week, month and hopefully not, year, that you have been giving yourself
the absolute best chance that you can in conceiving. In giving yourself health,
you are making it possible for someone else to come into existence. And giving
up addictions is hard.
As a responsible
couple you will be eating properly. Think about this. You are eating the best
foods you can buy. At the beginning
before you conceive, you are giving yourselves the gift of health. Improved
nutrition improves your chances of becoming pregnant. Later once you are
pregnant, you are giving your baby the absolute best material with which to grow.
All the protein from the fish and soy products, the calcium from the milk, the
carbohydrates from the bread, rice and noodles, the folate from the leafy green
vegetables, the iron from the meat and legumes you eat, these are all gifts to
your baby, and all of them are serious gifts. Without folate, your baby’s
central nervous system won’t develop, their spinal cord will not close. Without
protein and calcium, no bones or muscles. Without carbohydrates, no energy to
make the baby.
Exercise is a
gift during pregnancy. Regular exercise mitigates any number of the less
pleasant aspects of pregnancy. For a start women who are fit have labours that
are much less painful and on average shorter, they also on average require much
less intervention from the midwives and doctors. We knew that would get your
attention. Regular exercise helps in regulating gestational diabetes by using
up any excess sugar in the mothers
blood. It also helps settle the baby during the final weeks of the
pregnancy...basically the exercise of the abdominal muscles helps push the baby
down into the pelvic girdle and helps him or her assume the best position for
birth.
We must not
forget that meditation can be given to your baby. We came across a great deal
of at first anecdotal evidence and then our own experience showed that meditation helps with pregnancy, labour
and child raising. When you love this growing baby during pregnancy, endorphins
are released. You have, in a way, a natural high. These endorphins cross the
placental blood barrier and become part of your baby. You are calm and happy
and so is your baby. For Dad, the
meditation has the effect of bonding you with the baby. The happier you both
are to be pregnant, the happier the baby will be. The gift of meditation
continues well after your baby is born. No great mental leaps are needed to see
that parents who are, by nature, calm and constant make better decisions in
parenting. A solid meditation practice is, aside from the physical gifts of
food, clothes and shelter, the greatest gift you can give your child.
“Today I gave my best the best
nutrition/exercise/love that I could. How wonderful that I can do this. In a
world full of unskilful choices today I made skilful choices.”
Pregnancy is also
obviously a wonderful time to love your baby. A search of places like
Wikipedia, Google Images and pregnancy websites will show you that at first
there isn’t all that much to love, and what there is, doesn’t look all that
much like a person. Still what is there, is yours.
Quite literally
the moment you know that you are pregnant...and this includes Dad as well...is
the time to start having Metta towards your baby. It will be hard to have Metta
towards someone of whom there is no obvious outward sign of their
existence...unless morning sickness can be included...but not everyone we have
Metta for is physically in the room with us when we meditate. So it is with your
baby. Just give the baby a name, it doesn’t matter whether the name is male or
female or even whether you give a name or not, “my baby” will do.
“......may
you be strong, happy and at peace.”
If something goes wrong. (Miscarriage)
Sometimes, for no
reason really known or explainable, babies die. It is the elephant in the room
so to speak with every pregnancy. The
one thing we don’t want to acknowledge. We found numbers as high as 1:3
pregnancies fail. We also found evidence that the people compiling those
numbers included in the term “miscarriage” everything from fertilised eggs
failing to implant to foetuses dying quite late in the pregnancy. Note that
after 20 weeks gestation you will have no longer miscarried, you will have had
a stillbirth. The difference is technical, because if this happens to you, all
you will know is that your baby has died, no matter how far into the pregnancy you are.
No couple is ever pregnant with an embryo or a foetus, we are all pregnant with
a baby.
Our first
pregnancy struggled from the very beginning. It took two blood tests to confirm
that Selina was pregnant. The usual urine tests, all four of them, had returned
negative results. It was only that Selina’s
cycle was not in evidence and she had been quite literally as regular as
clockwork that convinced us at all that she was pregnant
We decided that
Ariel 1 was a boy (Ariel 2 is our son, who is very much alive and kicking. We
like the name and the associated symbolism. Ariel is the archangel of Healing
and New Beginnings. Basically, second marriage, first child, Ariel is Russell’s
new beginning ). We lost our son at five weeks gestation. At five weeks he wasn’t all that big....about as big as one
of the letters on this page, but he meant the world to us. His loss was the hardest thing that either of
us has ever had happen to us. Someone asked Russell what was it like, he
replied that it was like being beaten around the head with a blunt object
whilst being desperately nauseous and very, very tired.
Believe it or
not, but we found Dhamma in the death of our son. It brought so much into a
razor sharp focus. Death had entered our lives in an extremely intimate manner.
This wasn’t an outsider, this was someone we had both looked forward to having
for most of our lives, we had joyously announced the pregnancy in e-mails,
phone calls and on Facebook. In the week
afterwards, a friend remarked that the house was a mess. She had assumed that Russell
was in the hospital waiting room. He wasn’t. We were together throughout the
miscarriage. It was only when Russell broke down weeping and shouting that the
state of the house didn’t matter because he had seen his son die in the last
week that she realised where he had been.
Ariel 1 gave us
priceless gifts. He gave us the knowledge that we did have a strong
relationship that did have a future, that we had a marriage. He gave us the
knowledge that we could get pregnant. Russell has no children from previous
relationships. He gave us a very clear glimpse of what we could be and now are.
It was for these
reasons that although we took our time in saying good bye to our son, we were
not consumed with grief. Much to our surprise we didn’t grieve for very long at
all. No doubt Selina becoming pregnant
immediately after the loss of Ariel 1 helped. But we saw and counted our
blessings. We were better people for having had our son in our lives, no matter
how briefly.
We did not grieve
for very long, but our own experience and in talking to others has shown, the
grief fades, the hurt stays. When babies come into your life, they never really
leave. Ariel 1 still lives in our hearts, and this is someone who never got to
see the light of day, draw breath or laugh. We never got to hold him or really
say “Hello” before he left.
Take time to say
goodbye to your baby. The insensitive will tell you there is nothing to grieve
about...resist the urge to either scream at them or to physically harm them, or
to do both.
“Goodbye
my baby/my son/my daughter. It was wonderful to have had you in our lives.”
We had, and
strongly recommend, a funeral. This can be as public or as private an event as
you need it to be. Ours was a private event. Funerals, to use a Politically
Correct term “give closure”. They give you a space in which to grieve and say
goodbye. It matters not one bit that the rest of the world does not or cannot
understand why you are grieving the way you are. We took the time to say goodbye to our son. We
were able to take his remains home after explaining to the hospital that we are
Buddhist and wanted to say goodbye to our son. We, for want of a better word,
cremated him and his amniotic sac in our backyard, collected the ashes and put
in a vase that had a mother and baby painted on the outside. We bought a
ceramic pot with a lid. We sealed the vase with candle wax put it in the pot
and then over the following two months filled the pot with incense ash. We
wrote letters to our son saying how happy we had been to have been his parents
and how sad we were that he had had to leave so soon. We put in Buddha images,
Kwan Yin, a St Christopher’s medal (Selina
had been Christian before she met Russell)
When the pot was full, we sealed it and buried it in a very special
place.
We
would have taken much longer with saying goodbye, but as we’ve written above,
Ariel 2 was beginning to make it very obvious that he was in existence. It had
taken us precisely two weeks from the ending of miscarriage for Selina to become pregnant. And there is no
need to feel bad about this. It is very, very common for couples to fall
pregnant immediately after a miscarriage. We researched and found overwhelming
evidence that a very high percentage of couples who had had a miscarriage
conceived either immediately afterwards or in the next month or two. We found
that the odds of having two miscarriages in a row were about the same as
winning the Lotto. The body acquires a momentum of pregnancy. Our lives had
acquired the same momentum, everything was orientated towards being pregnant.
Falling pregnant again so quickly was normal and natural. Admittedly, we
weren’t shouting the news from the rooftops this time, and we almost literally
held our breath until the end of the first trimester which is when the chance
of miscarriage falls dramatically.
Ariel 2 was a manifestly stronger pregnancy.
This time the home test kit showed the result in a matter of seconds with very strong blue lines. Not long afterwards morning sickness put in
its first appearance and Selina broke
the news at a party of all places. She had been feeling “odd” for the previous
week and the usual fare at Australian parties was making her feel queasy, when
previously she’d been able to eat it almost with a shovel.
Knowing and
accepting that a miscarriage is the hardest thing you will ever do, you must be
gentle with yourselves and each other. Especially in the First Trimester, there
was almost nothing that you did that caused the loss of your baby. Babies die
in the First Trimester because of genetic mistakes that are so large that they would
never have lived had they made it to the end of the pregnancy. We know of
someone who’s son lived a week. We know
that having made it to the end of a pregnancy, gone through labour and then
have our son die would have most likely killed us.
Babies die, we
must also say that the overwhelming number of pregnancies do make it to a
perfectly healthy baby...the results are all around you.
Anything can be done, it just
depends on how willing you are to do it.
Birth
If this is your first pregnancy, then
you have quite literally have experienced nothing like it. Every pregnancy and
birth is unique. It’s like the children involved, the outcome of a pregnancy is
a unique person, and every pregnancy and the subsequent birth is a once off.
You may well have or have had a blissfully pain free labour...it happens. On
the other hand, you may have endured 36 of the most incredibly painful hours of
your entire life. We will not suggest
that you have to use the Recollection of Generosity during
contractions. There may be simply no way that you will be able to do anything
other than concentrate on the pain, present moment awareness certainly, because
intense pain does bring you very firmly into the present moment. There are very good reasons why painkillers are
offered during labour and it isn’t because women are a pack of wimps with low
pain tolerances.
Having said this, the labour pains are
not continuous. There are very clear beginnings and ending to them. It is in
the space between contractions that you can, if you want to and can, take the
time to recollect that you are actively giving
birth to someone . Your child has completed the truly extraordinary journey
from zygote to baby and you are now giving birth to someone. The next stage in
the baby’s life is beginning. You are
now giving that in the best possible manner you can. Our experience of the
public hospital system in Australia was a very positive one. We found that the
midwives were very caring and supportive.
So having given life and the best possible chances for your baby to grow
in your womb, you are now giving your baby the best possible chance to grow
into a beautifully natured child and adult. If this isn’t worth a moment or two
of WOW!, then we struggle to find an event that is.
The best possible time to do this
recollection in anything remotely resembling a formal manner would be in the
time, assuming there actually is a gap, between your waters breaking and or the
first unambiguous signs that labour has commenced and the time when your
midwives or doctor have advised you to actually go to hospital, which in
Victoria is when the contractions are three minutes apart. You will know that you are in labour, but the
contractions won’t be so close together that you will be occupied only with
them. Having written this, Selina had no pre-labour. She woke to a wet bed when
the amniotic fluid began leaking, then had back pains that came and went, we
spoke to a midwife on the phone, then decided to go to the hospital and actually had her waters break in the
hospital car park, she quite literally, stepped out of the car, and remarked “I
need another set of knickers because my waters just broke ”.
Even in the likely event that you find
you are unable to recollect in this manner at all during labour, you should
take the time afterwards to recollect and take joy in the extraordinary act of
generosity that was the act of giving birth.
For the father there is a wonderful chance to give during labour. The
mother is actively birthing the baby. The father should also be involved. The
support, encouragement and love that the father gives during labour are serious
acts of generosity. There is nothing minor about helping and supporting your
wife as she gives birth to your child. Once again, given, the intense nature of
the event, you are unlikely to be able to actually find either the time or the
energy during labour to sit quietly and formally recollect the true depth and ramifications
of your act(s) of generosity at this time, but rest assured there will be a
time when you will be able to. Even if you feel utterly helpless during labour,
your mere presence is a gift. We have heard of men dumping their wives at the
hospital and then going off to get drunk with their friends.
So rest assured, as ill equipped as
you may feel yourself to be, you are helping. There should also be a
recognition of the fact that people often rise to a challenge. You may feel
that you or your husband may be utterly useless during labour only to find that
you or he were essential to the event. We just don’t know until labour happens.
Often it is the least likely people who achieve the most. Russell was raised on stories of big,
tough men fainting at the sight of blood during labour, and in the generation
since, it has become expected of fathers to be present throughout labour and
beyond. Fainting, considered rather poor form in the 1970’s, is now an occasion
for embarrassment.
We developed, a
mantra. After every contraction it was “”Kurang satu” or “One Less” in either
English or Indonesian and frequently both languages. Russell’s main role was as coach. He simply
helped in pain relief and held Selina as she went through contractions. He
rates labour as one of his finest moments.
Babies
You’ve just
brought home someone who essentially sleeps, eats, and excretes (amazingly
enough babies can take milk in the top end whilst filling their nappies), and vomits...and
that’s it. This someone is also your daughter or son. We all know that the
human baby is the most helpless new born in the entire animal kingdom. Due to
simply physiology we have to give birth about six months before the baby is really
ready to face the world. Human babies can’t even control their own body
temperatures, that is how helpless they are.
The helplessness
of your child at this point in their life is a wonderful chance to practice
Dhamma. Here is someone who is dependent on you in a way that no one else ever
has been before. New born babies need everything. They are quite literally at
the most they can do when they eat, sleep and put frightening things into their
nappies. For the first couple of weeks, that’s it, that is the absolute limit
of what they can do. When a baby is awake, they will engage you emotionally
with eye contact and the grasping of fingers and noses and being impossibly
cute, but physically they are limited in the extreme.
No one will
pretend that nappies are places where you always exclaim with joy when they’re
full of poo..well not with a straight face. We were asked what it is we wanted
when Ariel was born, and replied “Gas Masks! If he’s anything like his father,
we’ll need them!” And when you are burping a baby after a feed, occasionally
you end up wearing some, if not all, of the meal. We read in one of the many,
many magazines available on pregnancy and early childhood, of where the new
family was having a day out. Mum gives the two month old daughter a feed in the
car. Dad is wearing a very nice new shirt and when the top up is finished puts
his daughter into a sling. Things are going glowingly well until Mum hears the
baby burp....loudly. Turns around to see Dad covered in vomit from his daughter
to his hair line.
The crying at 2
a.m. will be a challenge...because at that hour of the day you will have to
play a guessing game. You check the list of things that may be the cause of the
crying: so nappy full or empty, stomach full or empty, warm or cold? If you end
up with the nappy empty, the stomach full and the baby nice and warm, you are
left with the fact that Bub might just want to be held. There will be times when all you can do is simply
hold and love them.
Babies require
precious few things to be happy. They need to be fed, they need to be
comfortable, they need to be loved. They don’t need to be “entertained”, so
there is no need to rush out and buy the latest plasma TV or Play Station,
you’ll have to find another excuse . Skin to skin touch is needed by babies to
grow properly. What a wonderful time to practice Metta?
“(insert
name) may you be happy and content.”
We will not lie
to you. Babies are hard work. You will at first have every resemblance to
normal thrown out the window. There will be sleep deprivation, and the pile of
dirty...read revolting... nappies will never seem to get any smaller. You will,
at some point, feel totally overwhelmed and completely inadequate for the job
you have given yourself...and this is just the first week.
But step back a
moment.
Up until now,
your life has been about you. Now is a chance to love and give with no
reservation. Look at how you feel about your baby. There is a love there that
is without precondition. Our approach was to go with this. That love is the
basis of the Dhamma practice. Your baby
is the centre of your universe. Go and read the Metta Sutta at the beginning of
this book and see if the meaning hasn’t changed for you. Babies “do” Metta. They haven’t remembered
hate and they really aren’t into anger. That look of love that your baby gives
you is Metta. So is that look of pure love that you give them.
As we’ve written
above, nappies are, perhaps, one of the most challenging parts of being a new
parent. The baby has a milk based diet and you will be amazed at the sheer
awfulness of the smells and the sheer quantity of what comes out the back end
of your baby. How can someone so small fit so much of something that sticks
like glue and smells eye wateringly bad?
This is the basis
of the Recollection of Generosity. Take the time to recollect that today you
gave your baby the milk, the clean nappy, the bath, the love. You can give
being awake at a time you were used to going to bed. You can make folding the
nappies, eating properly, cleaning the mess off your baby and or yourself, and
the floor, walls etc, into gifts. Even on days when you think that you are an
utter failure as a parent, you can give your best at being a parent. Perfect
parents are always other people. No matter who you are, the other person is the
Perfect Parent. The other people who apparently are effortlessly raising the
Perfect Child, whilst yours is about got you convinced that she or he is the
Spawn of Satan, are the delusion born of most likely lack of sleep.
You give your
best.
“Today
I gave my best as a parent”.
Or
“Today
I gave (insert gift)”
Having
successfully swapped an ordered existence for one that has chaos as its main
characteristic, you have to give yourself space. Taking your baby out for a
long walk so that your husband or wife can have time to meditate is a gift.
Make the simple,
every day acts of being a parent into gifts and you are changing the mundane
into the profound. If it can be done or
thought, then it can be gifted, and it is the giving that matters.
Compassion makes
its entrance into the world of babies in those moments where he or she is
suffering. When a baby has wind, it hurts! So rather than either being annoyed
or distressed by your babies obvious pain when it comes to burping up wind, use
it as a chance to practice Compassion. Actually there is a way of giving that
will substantially reduce your baby
having problems with wind. When they say “breast is best”, they mean that
babies who breastfeed end up with less wind problems. Bottles contain air,
mammary glands don’t and what isn’t present can’t end up in your baby.
The Meditations
Generosity
In relation to
becoming a parent, generosity isn’t something that completely involves your
wallet. In fact, the people who’ve had parents who have functioned as ATM’s...i.e.
the super rich, are the ones known to complain the loudest that what they
didn’t want or need was their parents money, it was the love and caring that
should have come for free that they wanted, needed and missed the most.
So throughout the
time when you are trying for, are pregnant and have a baby take the time to
simply be with your spouse and your baby. The simple fact that you are
there is a wonderful gift.
Once your baby is
born the opportunities to give are almost quite literally endless. Absolutely everything can be given. You may think
that changing a nappy or burping or settling or loving your child is a pretty
ordinary event, but without a clean, dry nappy or a wind free stomach, things
in your house will get very noisy, very quickly. A crying or whinging baby was
rated as the most annoying sound in the world. We are genetically
programmed to be unable to ignore it. It is also something that if it is
happening in the same room you will find it impossible to sleep with. Ariel
cries the loudest when he has a wet nappy, he quite literally turned bright red
when he had a belly full of wind after a feed. So giving these things is
wonderful. They are important and they make a significant difference to the
quality of life in your house.
There is also the
simple fact that babies are expensive. You will spend a lot of time reaching
for your wallet. Take joy in this as well. There is absolutely no need to swamp
your baby’s life with toys and then use the buying spree in your meditation.
There is the
story of Athina Onassis, the granddaughter of the shipping magnate Aristotle
Onassis. Little Athina wanted a toy in a shop, but as young children are want
to do, Athina couldn’t make up her mind as to exactly what toy she wanted, her
mother Christina bought the entire shop, turns out all she wanted was time to
make her choice.
Remember just how
essential it is to your baby that they are fed, that their nappy is changed
often, that they are kept either warm or cool. These are absolutely necessary
gifts.
In the past you
have given food to Sangha, and that has rightly been a praiseworthy thing to
do, but there are others who often participate in Dana. With something like
breastfeeding, there is no one else who can do this. In Australia at the time
of writing there is a strong movement to breastfeed for at least the first week
or two after the birth. This is where you quite literally give your baby his or
her or their immune system. Think about this, you are giving someone their
immune system, a gift that will last a lifetime. How wonderful is that? But if,
for some reason, you can’t breastfeed and not all women can, then there is no
reason to feel bad about this. You are still feeding your baby, and that is the
gift of life.
With feeding your
baby comes burping them. Babies cry when they have wind because it hurts. So
burping them is giving them freedom from suffering.
With the nappy
changing, you are giving someone comfort. Also if a baby spends long enough in
a wet or dirty nappy then the moisture begins to affect their skin and nappy
rash results. Nappy rash is truly painful, the skin around your baby’s groin
will split and begin to peel, this lets in bacteria that will grow in the urine
or poo. Infection can result. So that nappy change at 2 a.m is an important
gift. Remember that 2 a.m isn’t a terribly social time, often it has been the
time that we were going to bed. Now it is the time when we are changing the
nappy of a wriggling, crying baby. It is easy to underestimate the importance
of this gift, don’t. Rejoice in it, this gift makes everyone in your home
happier.
Give your baby
endless kisses. There are two aspects to this. By kissing your baby particularly
on their face, you are actually giving them the micro-flora and microfauna that
they need in their stomach to actually digest food. Babies aren’t born with the
bacteria in them, they get it from you. So kissing your baby, apart from being
something you want to do, is actually necessary for them to digest their food.
The other aspect is that babies who know that they are loved are happier babies
for it. There are less problems when it comes to them sleeping and generally
being people. In making it so obvious that you adore them you are giving them
the security they need to be happy, well adjusted adults with all the positives
that this will bring about. Once again, a simple, natural act becomes a gift
that will last a lifetime.
Tell your baby
that you love them. Even when they are very young they will respond to the
emotion behind the words. Knowing that you are wanted and needed and loved by
your parents is the foundation of a happy, well adjusted life. So leaving your
baby and child in absolutely no doubt that they are adored is giving yet
another deeply important gift.
So filling your baby’s life with everything
that buzzes, whistles and flashes isn’t necessarily the greatest act of
generosity. Wonderful childhood memories are created when you give unreservedly
of yourself. Give your child Mum or Dad
time, it costs nothing and will give priceless memories, it will also help them
when it comes to becoming parents in their turn.
Give your baby
rules. Babies need routines. Babies like a life that is boring and predictable,
it gives them security. Russell believes that half of his emotional problems as
an adult were caused by his father being unpredictable and with the rules never
being a constant thing. There was no sense of security with his father. This
led to years of struggle with depression and insecurity as an adult. He also
rates himself as being quite fortunate in this because other family have
struggled with drug use, broken marriages and lives of crime.
And when the baby
grows into a child give them discipline. Russell once lived with a woman who
had a sister who believed that children naturally would respect other people
and their property, she believed that even a mild smack was unnecessary. The
problem was that the child very quickly figured out that her mother was nothing
more than noise and that when she tore up books or broke things that there
would be no grief as a result. A couple of years later when Russell visited in
order to find out if any children had resulted from his relationship with this woman’s
sister, the sister had learnt that occasionally a smack on the backside would make
her daughter a nicer person...and she was.
There is no suggestion here that the
discipline is of the sort that leaves bruising or broken skin, that is abuse.
What is being suggested that a smack that is more noise than pain on the nappy
cover and as a result gives the child a fright is what is needed. Though
personally, if we were given a choice between smacking Ariel quite hard and
having him burn himself on the bar-b-que or heater or run out on the road into
traffic, we’ll take the smack any day.
So go to your
Sacred Space and take joy in what you have given. Marvel at it, exclaim
verbally and or mentally just how nice it is being a parent. You are giving
something that no one else in the world can. You have made life, you are or
have given that life everything it needs to become a person. Take joy in the
many, many gifts you give every day to your baby. They are wonderful and you
should abide in the wonder that you, an ordinary person, is capable of giving
such gifts.
Peace
You will have moments of it. There
will be the times when everything is still, either the baby in your uterus
isn’t kicking or the baby in the cot is full of milk and is asleep. There is
also the utter stillness that comes with the joy of being a parent.
Wherever the peace comes from, be with
it, sense how beautiful the peace is. Take time to be with this peace, it is a
refuge for the times when your baby is making like they are someone else’s
child entirely and these moments seem to invariably happen at extremely
antisocial times of the early morning or in public.
A mind that is at peace and as a
result still is naturally a very happy one. Peace isn’t dull, quite the opposite in fact, if
anything it’s blissful.
You notice the peace and mentally and
verbally exclaim just how nice it is. Notice the texture of the peace and take
joy in it.
Metta
Metta is likely
to be one of the very first things that you will experience on the birth of
your baby. We have known True Love, and it wasn’t the first time we saw each
other. True Love happened at 3.01 p.m on May 17, the moment Ariel was born. We
took one look at him and we knew a love that had no boundaries to it and was
completely altruistic. So for the first time after more than 20 years of
practising Metta meditation and having some very blissful experiences Russell finally knew Metta.
It is important
that you establish yourself in a practice of Metta first, all the other Brahma
Vihara flow from Metta. The mind that abides in Metta towards a baby is also a
mind that will abide in Karuna, Mudita and Upekkha. At times these other Brahma
Vihara will surprise you by their appearance.
Karuna
Ariel had an interesting first week of life,
he lost 13% of his birth weight due to Selina’s milk not descending quickly
enough, as a result he was readmitted to hospital. There was a time when both
of us were deeply aware that ourselves weren’t actually on our “care list”,
Ariel was the sole focus of our concern and his well being was the centre of
our lives. Our access to food and sleep was secondary to knowing that our son
was well. The wanting the suffering to end and taking steps to make it end is
Compassion.
Mudita comes very
early when you notice your joy in seeing your baby growing and developing.
Upekkha puts in
an appearance the moment you recognise that this baby actually isn’t yours.
Yes, the child is your son or daughter, but they have entered this lifetime
with their own Kamma and it will be very obvious very early in their
lives....the first week...their own personalities. So you care for and love
this baby, but you have to be aware that you invited them into this lifetime,
you cannot govern how long they will stay.
/ˈʃɪvə/; Sanskrit: शिव Śiva,
meaning "auspicious one") is a major Hindu deity,
and is the Destroyer or Transformer among the Trimurti, the
Hindu Trinity of the primary aspects of the divine.
